Slept heavily, unfortunately not for too long, oh well, also a bit sore and aching all over, at least the Neuropathy pains are minimal at the moment,  

Still considering posting my account of living with PTSD, I'll give it a few days, truth is I don't think anyone else is even reading this, yeah I know it's boring, but I needed a release, at times things were just getting too much, so hence I post my musings here, hey it's Cathartic right ?  

Living with PAIN really is a pain, and a lot more soul destroying than you can imagine, it creeps into so many areas of your life, Diabetes, day to day, is not such a bother, but the costs of poor control and it's side effects are often devastating, even if only emotionally,

Add them all up, with various other illness's, and life can become quite difficult,

Crying your eyes out, telling your adoring and adorable wife and soulmate that you can't cope anymore, begging them to end it for you, yeah I know, selfish, but sometimes, well sometimes you just can't escape the pain and the helplessness,

I wake somedays deciding I'm going to stop being a Diabetic because I don;t like it !  

But today, So far is a GOOD day, and I'm coping, today I want to carry on, today Life is a positive experience,

Well a comfortable evening, the pain has hung around, but I've managed to control it, so a pleasant evening with Wendie for company,

A while back, I started writing, what I hoped would become a book, but a few bad days in a row, and I as usual lost my impetus and couldn't get back in the grove,

It was about a real life incident 30 years ago while serving in the Army, I suffered PTSD and Depression as a consequence and was in hospital for sometime afterwards,

I doubt I'll ever finish it, but the little I have started, I thought of putting here in small chunks, I'll think on it !  

Well early start tomorrow, desperately need sleep, Goodnight,