Slept heavily, unfortunately not for too long, oh well, also a bit sore and aching all over, at least the Neuropathy pains are minimal at the moment,  

Still considering posting my account of living with PTSD, I'll give it a few days, truth is I don't think anyone else is even reading this, yeah I know it's boring, but I needed a release, at times things were just getting too much, so hence I post my musings here, hey it's Cathartic right ?  

Living with PAIN really is a pain, and a lot more soul destroying than you can imagine, it creeps into so many areas of your life, Diabetes, day to day, is not such a bother, but the costs of poor control and it's side effects are often devastating, even if only emotionally,

Add them all up, with various other illness's, and life can become quite difficult,

Crying your eyes out, telling your adoring and adorable wife and soulmate that you can't cope anymore, begging them to end it for you, yeah I know, selfish, but sometimes, well sometimes you just can't escape the pain and the helplessness,

I wake somedays deciding I'm going to stop being a Diabetic because I don;t like it !  

But today, So far is a GOOD day, and I'm coping, today I want to carry on, today Life is a positive experience,

Well Good Morning World !

I had so little sleep last night, and I am so desperately tired, but other than that I feel GOOD !

Sometimes living with Diabetes is a real pain, and I often want to just stop being a Diabetic   ...   If only!
Peripheral Neuropathy, a side effect of poor diabetes control plays the biggest part in my life, PAIN, fills my world, but when you wake and there is NO pain that morning, then believe me you feel like celebrating, 

A friend, older than me, more advanced in the deterioration, had his lower leg amputated under a year ago, it got to him, He appears to be giving up, today I can fight, lets hope it stays that way!!!!!!

First post...

Things aren’t great pain wise here, I’ll cope, but it is dragging me down, It also appears that not only am I deteriorating, but I had a email newsletter from Diabetes UK there was a link to an article about Diabetic neuropathy’s, I appear to have symptoms of them all, not just some of the symptoms, but every single one of them for every type of neuropathy,

Don’t get me wrong I’m not panicking, I will see my GP and talk to my specialist too, but it is kind of a bitter blow, I’m having other problems too, so generally not much fun,

I also can’t get on with my writing, I’ve given up, I really wanted to get this done, especially if I am deteriorating as much as I think, I’ll cope, but it is getting harder to put on a brave face!

Wendie’s doing good , just working too hard as usual, Delta’s a nuisance so is Dayne.

Club isn’t a lot of fun either, I’ve been asked to give a lecture/talk on PSK31, it’s a mode of communications, used by Hams, it needs computers linked to radio’s and some very clever software, which I helped in a very very small way in the development of one of the programs we use.