Today,

I think is the most physically painful day of my life,

And I've had a few, believe me ! 

Literally every single joint in my body is hurting, every bone every muscle,

I am not exaggerating or imagining it, this is the resultant pains of many combined problems,  

And I have not had a seconds relief,

I'm surprisingly coping, managing not to scream at Wendie to put me out of it, 

The day is sinking into evening, my pain is getting steadily worse, and I pray to survive one more day,  

I think my big toe is becoming necrotic,

And it's not the Pain that's made me ANGRY !!! 

I was assessed today, by Telephone, I don't meet the requirements for extra assistance, despite my heart. lung, breathing troubles, Diabetes , peripheral neuropathy, retinopathy (I'm going blind), I'm a stroke victim (at age 35), epileptic, Asthmatic, I have falls too regularly, depression, PTSD, I have problems walking, I'm afraid to leave home alone, to name just a few of my troubles and disabilities,

Ok I don't need any help,

I'm so glad I'm coping so well !!! 

And when they DO eventually amputate my lower legs, will I need help then ??? 

Of course I DO consider myself LUCKY !

Pain is bad today, Managed to go to club, but pain was the dominant feeling of the day, hey I'm still kicking, so things can't be so bad ! 

I don't always know why, but today I feel so much better, I'm in lot's of pain, almost unbearable pain to be honest,

But I've had support from my darling wife, my dearest of friends, and I went over to Club earlier and did some operating on the radio, preparing for my Talk / Lecture, I spoke to someone in Russia (Moscow), Poland, Spain and Romania, not bad for one short afternoons experimenting with the setup, with John there too, it was very pleasent,

If your a Radio Amateur like me, and interested in Digimodes (PSK, RTTY, SSTV etc.), take a look at G3LIV (Johnny Melvin) and his interfaces, They are Brilliant and work faultlessly, ans cusomer service is unbeatable, 

So as you see, I'm slowly crawling out of the dark place, Oh if you read and want to know about eBooks or eBook Readers then look at the forums etc on   http://www.mobileread.com/  a great friendly community with much info and help, and I have friemds there who have been so so supportive, 

Oh and the new friend I reached out my hand too, please feel free to get in touch ANYTIME, you will find broad shoulders and big ears   ...   perfect for listening !  

Clocks go Forward 1 Hour Tonight !  

Pain has been bad today, I'm copimg,

Held out a hand of friendship today,

To a new friend who needed love and understanding more than I did,

Wendie's working nights again, missing her loads,  

Coffee with John earler, that was nice, but I'm so tired and drained,

May go to club tomorrow Sunday to test out my Digimode Setup on the new laptop before I give my Talk / Lecture there on the 25th April 

I need sleep only managed 2 Hours Total last night / today